True Confessions: Part 1

I have a confession to make. I now live in (and love) a home that I bought sight unseen. Come Again? Yes. You read that correctly. I went into a mortgage for a home that I never saw, save a few photos. Who would do that? A crazy person. That's who!

Boy does it feels good to get that off of my chest!  I've been walking around all these months carrying this deep, dark secret. OK. Maybe not, but you get the idea. It is somewhat unusual. Most people wouldn't do that but I'm kinda getting into the whole unusual thing these days. It's fun. You should try it too. It really makes people uncomfortable and I like that (making people uncomfortable, that is).

This is/was my first home purchase. I have never owned a home before, let alone a home that I never saw prior to purchase. I have also never lived in community before (there will be more on that later). The first time I saw my home (other than in photos) was the day that my hubby and I pulled up in the driveway after over 18 hours of travel from Boulder, Colorado.

I remember the feelings that I had as I saw my home for the first time. I remember how I felt as we pulled up after the arduous trip. There was relief. There was fear, excitement, anxiety, joy, anticipation, and then, as I crossed over the threshold of my new home, unequivocal gratitude. How could I? How could this be? How could humble, mortal, little ol' me deserve such blessing? This home was/is far more than I could have ever hoped for or dreamed. It was meant to be, just as living with my in-laws was meant to be. As I slowly walked through the home, taking it all in, I became overwhelmed by it all. I can only describe it again as extreme gratitude. I began to cry. They were tears of joy, tears of humility and, in all honesty, tears of extreme fatigue. After all, I had just driven half-way across the country to get to my new home. After 32 years I had finally come home and it felt great.

I do feel blessed to have this home. I do feel like there is a purpose to all of this. I look forward to finding out what the future holds for myself and my 3 other commune partners in crime. It remains to be seen. I look forward to walking the road and sharing some of it with you along the way. There is much to tell.

Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think. Ephesians 3:20